Don’t you hate when u fail sombody you never want to hurt. When ur actions cause someone else pain.
Well thats what i did, and what was worse it was to my best friend.
I know that there are many things in my life that arnt perfect and that i need to work on, i admit that but what sucks is when one of these things hurts someone you love.
For me its jealousy, i hate the feeling of being jealous, but i still struggle with it. Basically my best friend was hanging out with one of her friends, she had a dinner to go to. We had planned to hang out after the dinner, but the dinner went for ages and they were hanging out afterwards.
See none of this should of effected me, she didnt plan to ditch our plans, she didnt know they were gonna go back to someones house. She did nothing wrong
But of course i was upset that she decided not hang out, but as soon as i got upset about it the devil, swooped in and started sayin things in me ear, sayin things like, shes ditchin u to hang out with someone else, hes better then you, shes likes him better, just puttin these jealous thoughts in my head
See the devil is out to put you down, if you give him an inch he will run a mile, he turned an innocent act of my friend gettin caught up at a party and turned it aroumd in my head tellin me i was losing my best friens which is really what i fear most. I cant lose her but at the same time my jealousy hurt her.
I disapointed myself, and once i realised that i had hurt my best friend, i started to hate myself, and again the thought started flooding in, shes not replyin cause she hates u, u did wrong by her and its over
The devil is sneaky and will attack at every chance he gets. But from this day on i rebuke the lies of the devil, and i rebuke the mentality of jealousy over my life will be gone cause i dont need to hold onto it because jesus died for my sins, he took all my hurt and pain, and in return gave new life.
Never let the devil whisper lies in your ears, dont give him the opportunity.
And when you hurt a friend apologize and ask for forgivness because friendship is one of the most important things in life.
